Full Speed ahead

Man oh man is life ever busy these days... especially leading into the Xmas season.

I went on the cruise a month ago... and it was super fun! Took a day or two to get comfy with the work crew, but it was fine.  I was nervous at first and maybe it took a drink or three to loosen up, but everyone was great and it was liberating to be away from the family, with no responsibilities.  The guilt only lasted for a couple days, then I realized I had to take full advantage of the situation because it wouldnt likely happen again for a long time! The weather was awesome, hot and sunny and not that rocky on the ship.  after we left Cozumel, a hurricane came on shore 3 hours later! Jamaica was my fave! Gorgeous! (pics to come after as other computer which holds said pics is down) sitting on the beach, drinking rum punch with Bob Marley being sung in the background.... perfect!

By day 4.5 I missed my sons... and by day 5.5 I missed my husband  ;-)  truth. 

After a week of drinking and staying up late and too much sun, I was ready to come home to real life.

But as stated in the title... its been full speed ahead.

Husbands birthday, Maxs birthday, two hair shows with work, late night work functions, visiting with friends, sick with bronchitis, planning for xmas and all it brings! and its only been a month...

I have no idea where I am going to find the time to do what is needed of me in the next 5 weeks, time to put on the supermom cape!

How do we moms do it? Where do we find the time?  Stay tuned... I'll keep you posted.

Carnival Liberty or Carnival Liberating?

There are exactly 17 days left til my 1 week Caribbean cruise. You know, the work one I've been counting down for the past 3 months. Up until today I have been sooo excited to be going (sans kids and husband have I mentioned?), but all of a sudden the realization that I will be AWAY from my family far far away floating on the ocean in Hurricane season has hit me. 

Will I be lonely? Even though I will be there with over 10 ppl from work I am worried about this.   If you know me, you know I am not really a huge drinker, so what if that is all they want to do? (a boat full of hairdressers... of course that is what they are going to want to do!) or what if they want to do activities/excursions I dont want to do? I have only been at work for a year and my job is quite solitary so I dont really know know these people yet... Part of me is looking forward to just laying at the pool, reading an actual book and maybe imbibing in a mojito or two.  But how can I do that as a newbie and not seem standoffish/snooty/boring? Sigh... I know it sounds like a tough problem to have...

As well, I just figured out that I will be gone for Thanksgiving weekend.  I already feel guilty enough about leaving my family to do something fun just for me, and now I really feel bad.  Isnt thanksgiving the time of year you get together WITH your family, not run away from them? 

Dont even get me started on my *ahem* physique right now.  Not really "cruise ready" if you catch my drift. another sigh... this is only my fault.  Is it too late for a cleanse??  Who am I kidding...

Will this time away refresh me and make me a better mom/wife/coworker?  I can only hope.  We (moms) all need time just for us without feeling guilty right? Maybe this just feels too fabulous? Maybe its my own "I'm not worthy" feelings creeping in once again?   Is it ok if I have a fantastic time and come home sharing my fun stories and pictures?  Do I deserve this?

Jamaica?? Yes please!  But not sharing it with loved ones or close friends seems weird..

After all of these thoughts/feelings are done swirling around my head I have to remember this:

I am thankful to have a wonderful family
I am thankful to have a great job
I am thankful for this opportunity to go on the cruise
I am thankful to finally have a stable childcare situation
I am thankful my family and I are all healthy

I am sure it will be amazing and that once aboard everything will be ok.  I promise to enjoy every moment.  Afterall, look at the ship.... how can I not?

bedtime

Haha... ok, now that I've got this up and running its time for bed!  Dont expect anything more until the weekend after the Fall sip and swap at Jens place tomorrow night!  Going to be a great time - and its for charity!  Chat later

First Post!

I really didnt need another online vice to take me away from "real life", but sometimes there are things going on that require more than 140 characters.  I guess I can write what I like on here and not worry that I am bothering people with my "family" stuff.  Its my stuff and I figured I need a place to let it out.  So here goes...